withdrawal

it's a day where people daclared it as a day to for st. valentine's heroic act. if u dun know abt the story, just yahoo or goggle abt it loh... if ya can't do tt? pls bang the wall...

so saints doing crazy stuff this season too... a big joke in life...

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so this saint happen to chance the great legendary morris today on the bus yesterday. saint n legend didn't really get a chance to tok, but then, they did exchange some sms. legend stated a fact: vday is our most despicable day... and it's true indeed...

y is he a legend? cos he's prob the most respected chap i ever know in my life, the one who taught me abt politics play, and the sense of manupuliation for sheer survival. not to mention he's also the god in my era. n i'm proud to be his successor~ --> cos i created a legend too... lol

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okay~ shit happens... the wrong time... the wrong approach... the wrong everything... despair... lost... confused... shock... stun... withdrawl... u name the worst... the saint has encountered it all in matter of an hr or two.. 1hour 25 min to be exact...

let's see how things go on...

so ppl... ppll.... dun expect his royal saintness to smile n b cheeky.. cos he won't b able to do it!

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took part in the dota tourny yesterday n today. won yesterday. won 1 round today.. end up playing for 3rd placing tml.. well.. all the best guys...

the state of shock was instense.... the withdrawal sympothons terrible... for once in my entire 21 years of sainthood, i never felt so clear in the mind... never feel so calm... even as we played the game, with lots of ppl behind shouting... witht the opponent cursing.... it was all calm in the brain, and the heart. just lots of pain... i wonder....

so i guess the saint did worst then usual...

tml playing for 3rd place... god bless? maybe not after all... the man upthere is weird...

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saint was exactly feeling very motivated to even get to school... he's feeling so tired all of a sudden... so terribibly old, all in a matter of one night... y? gracious... he's wasn't sleeping the night before, just stoned looking at the ceiling while lying on the bed till dawn...n promptly went for gaming...

just lying there, lazing... thinking... the the clear calm mind...

he has made his choice... and will stick to it...
tt's final...

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it's been a terrible day... saint wearing an mask of smile... facing the team. encouraging them when if was totally sianzess. making merry when he was absolutly miserable.

imagine a saint radiating negative arua who has to put with cheering ppl up... how awlful..

sighs... life stinks.. just like tt

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