got this from another friend of mine. rememeber part 1 tt i posted taken from her friendster bulletion? well, it's the following up it that i received in the mass send. sad but true, the moment i finish reading it. i just feel a sharp pain.
not pain, just a sharp sting, right in beary part where all love flows. where it just feel's numb, from the scars i have gotten in the past, from the ones who betray, from the very 1s i call friends, from the 1s i love, and care.
i quote:
"It's been a pretty hectic time for me,
Been trying to meet all my project deadlines,
And study for my exams.
I spend a lot of time reflecting when I�m
stressed.
And I�ve finally thought things through,
Now I can concentrate fully on my studies.
Through our conversations,
I�ve finally gained closure.
At least you do not treat every gal that way
And once had feelings for me.
As I said,
What�s so special about you?
Maybe it's because we have a history together.
Though we were not very close,
I still hold the beautiful memories deep within
my heart.
True, you may not be what I�m looking for,
But you know what,
If you asked,
Maybe I might consider you again.
Because I know that you have learnt from your
mistakes,
And me too�
I believe that you know how good I was for you,
As you were to me.
And because we�ve loved and lost once,
I know I will cherish you with all my heart.
Anyway,
I�m really glad that we can still remain good
friends,
Keeping in contact with each other by phone,
And even going out once in a while.
Maybe it�s you or it�s me,
But I�ve always held the belief,
That it takes two hands to clap.
It�s very rare for couples,
To actually remain good friends,
After they break up.
And I�m fortunate that we are one of the rare
few.
I believe that,
Our breakup has enabled us to become closer.
Maybe we weren�t meant to be in the first place.
We�ve been through countless stuff
And have cleared things up,
Without letting it affect our friendship.
We�ve agreed by mutual consent,
That we were both not ready for each other
But who knows what might happen in future?
Even though you were my first boyfriend,
And we did not have a fairy-tale ending,
I�m still glad that it was you.
Someone else could have really smashed my heart
into pieces,
Without any consideration on my part.
That�s one of the ways I try to look on the
bright side.
I believe things always happen for a reason,
And I�ve learnt a lot since then.
Sometimes, I do wonder,
What would have happened if we were together now,
Instead of in the past,
When we were both young and wilful?
And we�ve both matured a lot since then.
But anyway,
That�s all water under the bridge.
I don�t believe in dwelling on the past
And should look towards the future instead.
After all these years,
I�ve learnt a lot about myself,
And what I want to achieve in life.
I got around to thinking,
When a couple of my friends were having a
conversation,
That I�m pretty demanding of myself.
I want to have a career and a family,
But that�s probably a lot to handle.
It seems pretty daunting too,
And I don�t think every guy can handle me.
They might feel that I don�t care enough about
them.
And to that special one somewhere out there,(I
don't know where you are yet...so u people don't
message me ask mi whether i've found someone
issit hor...you know who you are...hehe.will let
ya noe if i'm attached.ok?)
I just wanna let you know that
Even if I look at other guys,
It doesn�t mean anything.
I promise not to get angry,
When you look at other gals.
Don�t get angry at me,
Because you are one of a kind.
The fact is,
Once I�ve chosen you,
I will stick by my decision.
But I won�t love you any less,
Just because you are not good-looking.
Rest assured,
Once I give my heart to you,
It�s for real.
But if you are happier with someone else,
I will let you go,
No matter how much it hurts me to do so.
I guess I�m pretty realistic,
I don�t believe in wasting each other�s time.
If I don�t think something�s gonna work,
I would rather leave things as they are.
You guys may think I�m really blur
But that�s not true.
I just don�t want to make things difficult.
Even if I don�t think you are the right guy,
I would prefer it if we could still be friends.
Who knows what�s gonna happen in the future?
You might get knocked down by a car,
Or you might live to a hundred years.
Nobody knows for sure,
So don�t live life based on regrets,
It�s a waste of time.
Life's too short for that.
Yesterday is the past,
Today is the present,
Tomorrow is the future
So make good use of today.
If you feel that something feels right or wrong,
Do something to correct it.
Don�t wait until it�s too late...
Last, but not least,
I sincerely wish that,
You�ll find the right one,
Even if it�s not me.
No matter what happens,
You�ll always remain in a secret compartment in
my heart.
Friends forever�=p "
considering her work, i definatly could use this extract as my own. but, it somethings hurts to read something so disturbing from her. particularly that she's disclosing to the world that she still remebers tt fellow, her 1st love[e bastard, no offense]. no doubt ppl remember their 1st love or crush, or other 1st times.'
but it's totally not cool that the special someone i reallk like, still remembers their 1st, and she has to post it in the bullectin board! AH!!!! totally headraCKING!@
i know it's prob wrong for me to think abt this issue, to be so possessive. yet, i just could not control myself.
honestly, wat should i do.
most ppl think i dun really feel so much. ppl think i'm not the type hu look like they can feel, or even be slightly be able to sense emotions. that's because i'm always putting an icy look at such things, alwasy smiling despite of what happens, regardless that it be good or not. even my best buddies dun know how i really feel. i only allow a small portion of my emotions to flow, to be seem by them.
i doubt any1 know's wat ther really Robbie like, beneath the social butterfly, witty, flirtous tongue, happy go lucky chap.
no 1, no 1 knows, the pain i really feel inside and the holy crap shit, i'm facing.
*~He's so lucky, He's a star~*
*~But he cry cry cries in his lonely heart~*
*~Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life~*
*~Then why do these tears come at night?~*
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